"you don't know nan..." or "girl dat's juvenile!" (i couldn't decide;))

okay, i'm sorry. here i go again.  i guess i am just feeling very sentimental about all the wonderful people in my life that i love so dearly and that love me unconditionally. maybe it has something to do with madden being into the land before time again, we all know how that movie can get to you.=) but i have just been thinking a lot about my beautiful, little, colombian/puerto rican best friend, (who thinks she is italian;)) diane, aka my nana. i could not ask for a more genuine, devoted friend. she is the type of friend that will take out her earrings for you if she needs to;) or step in for you when you're not at your strongest.  she is the type of friend that is willing to stay a few hours late at work b/c she spent 3 hours on the phone with you instead of doing what she was suppose to. the type of friend that will always answer your texts even if they come at 3 a.m. (although, that one works both ways.;)) nana is one of the strongest people I will ever know. i can only hope that some of her strength will rub off on me. I hope she doesn’t mind me telling you all this but I just want everyone else to know how strong and amazing she really is. I met nan our freshman year of high school and we instantly became the very best of friends. I am forever grateful that we did then so that I could be there to see firsthand just how amazing she really is. diane’s mom had lou gehrig’s disease and it was in the later stages in high school. she went through so much with her mom and everything it took to take care of her, I can’t even begin to imagine what she felt. i just know of the sacrifice on her part bc she was soo devoted to her mommy. nana’s mommy passed away the summer of our junior year. i was spending that summer in utah with family and it still makes me cry every time i think about not being there for her. a few years after that her beautiful sister, Jennifer, passed away too. these two things would probably break me forever but diane has such a strength and an infectious love for life and the world and is always the optimist.  after high school crazy nan up and decided she was moving to nyc where she still lives, by herself, in an apartment in Brooklyn. she ain’t scared of nothin!! i have always been so amazed by people that have had unbelievably hard things happen to them in their lives but still turn out to be amazing people. diane is definitely on my list of “the most wonderful people I have met.” nana is soooo wise beyond her years. she has the most incredible judge of character, it's almost witch like. i rarely listen to her and sometimes she doesn't even listen to herself but she is ALWAYS right on. it's crazy!! she knows what i am really feeling or thinking even before i do. "randa, you don't even really feel that way. when are you going to realize that?"=) And is never afraid to disagree with me (even when I’m only calling to vent and the only thing I need or want her to do is agree with me!) or tell me I am being a fool. she does it in the nicest way, I love that about her.;) thank you, nan for being you and for always being there to put my crazy in check.;) I love you with all my heart.<3

{I changed my #1 and 2 songs to ones that remind me of you. can we just change fifteen to twenty eight??;) and they didn’t have “spilled perfume” or you know that would have been my #1. xxox!}